Bye Snoopy...

I know you didn't get to know Snoopy very well, and I guess that's a good thing.... Mom found him a better home, since she couldn't keep him here and couldn't really afford to keep him at all. Don't worry, you'll have animals some time in the future, I'm sure of it.

Photos of you that I love

I recently went through some onld files/photos on my computer and thought I'd post a few that stirred something in me.

This is the closest naked photo I'll probably ever post. It's you wrapped in a towel after a bath. You always loved being carried out to the couch in the living room, wrapped in a big towel, and 'plopped' you on the cushions... we'd giggle and laugh while getting your pj's on.

You were always one to make faces... funny ones mostly. Trying to make everyone laugh or be shocked. You were so adorable!

Some times, you were contemplative. I remember you calling me over while you were drinking milk on the couch (probably watching tv). You wanted me to look in your glass....

"Look, Gramma.... It's smiling!"

This made me laugh, RIGHT OUT LOUD!!!...hahahahaha

You always wanted to play outside!! ALWAYS! Mom would have to make you get your shoes on ( you didn't even want to do that-- it took too much time!)

Can you tell mom was pleased by your haircut that Aunt Jannie (Janet) gave you? I really liked your natural curly hair. Mom unfortunately didn't, ... maybe it made her think of your heritage (she had a hard time with reminders of certain people- namely your biological dad).

On to better 'dad's'.... This guy is your Papa! My best friend. You always love doing things with him. Didn't matter what!

Looks like you had a million dollars in your hand!! (it was a paint swatch from the home depot store.)

 This was you in your first bed. You looked comfy. I always felt bad that it was in the basement/cellar. The walls had paneling, but the ceiling had beams, pipes (some of which you used to try and hang from!), then we insulated it, but never covered it (the ceiling). See those sheets? They were from when I had my first apartment in 1973!!

You used to love sitting in the middle of leaf piles.... Never liked the bath I'd give you after, though...LOL

You loved to look cute, and you had the cutest belly!

I have always loved you to death!! We were always the bestest of friends! I love you.

This was a fun day... drawing hopscotch on the driveway with chalk and riding our bikes! Okay, maybe I wasn't quite the right size for the bike, but I tried! I bought that tricycle for you from the St Mary's (our/your church) Dayschool, when it disbanded, for $5. Sturdy little bugger!!

Hope you enjoyed looking at these. I'll post more as I come across them.

Sad Day

I'm sure you are too young to remember this day, but last Sunday (Sept. 5th), your mom received a 'text message' from her fiancee telling her he wasn't ready to get married. They had gotten engaged last December (2009), and they were working on her moving you and her down to Florida where he lived. She would have transferred her job down there (that was in the works) and gotten you into a Head Start program of some sorts.... (we would have missed you like crazy, Papa and I... , but we would have wished you both the best life you could ever have). A couple of days later, I noticed your mom's 'ring' was off her finger. Like I said.... sad day.
It's now a few days later. I think she's doing pretty well. I know she's sad, and it's too bad she received the news the way she did, but I think... no, I KNOW it's for the best. I'm glad he did it BEFORE you guys disrupted your lives to move all the way there.
Now, if I'm really selfish, ... I'm glad you are gonna be with us (by the way, you live in the basement in our house with mom, in case you don't remember that when you're older) for Christmas and the other holidays. Knowing that you could have been moving before Dec., made me want to do all the things I wouldn't have been able to do with you for a while (I don't like FL and probably wouldn't have flown down there much... well, .... maybe I WOULD have, since I would have missed you like crazy!!-- for no one else would I have considered it  ;-)   ). But now, I don't feel the rush to do everything that would be memorable to YOU, and cram it in a short span of time. Come to think of it, maybe that's not so good, because now I don't have to do so much .... hahaha. Awww... you know I probably will, since you are such fun at this age.
I know someday you will have a dad (not that you weren't born with one, but we won't go there today), but I guess the right dad has to come along at the right time. He has to be pretty special for me to accept him as YOUR dad! The one you were born with wasn't right for you. He didn't deserve you. Please.... just trust me on that.
Okay, so ....On with the next chapter of your life. You have school starting soon....a new teacher (I hear she's great- from your babysitter, Shee-shee---Sheila Brown). Her name is Donna Acker (Mrs Acker to you). You are growing into a fine boy, even though you have your days. Don't we all? It's nice to hear that you 'were the best boy ever', when I pick you up from Shee-shee's house. So ... let's hope and pray mom gets to feel better soon, and we're kinda back to square one. And, message to mom.... breathe.

Here's to you....

I've thought of starting this blog for you, Malakai for a while. I know you are only 4 1/2 yrs old now, but there are things I'd like to tell you that I hope you can use later in life. Some day, when I'm gone from your life (like dead), I hope these will help you understand your family and make you a great man.
For right now, ... you're a great little boy...and I love you.